I've been in some kind of funk lately. I haven't felt social at all. I think it has something to do with turning 30.
I think it started a few months ago. I'm the type of person that holds on to her friends for a very long time. I've never had a problem reconnecting with any of them. It's always seemed very simple to pick up right where we left off. Some of the re-connects lately haven't been like that though. They've been stilted and awkward. I've left sad and unfulfilled. It seems like I'm at the age now where everyone's focus is on something else - family, career, etc. Not so much on being social anymore.
At first I thought it was them. Like they grew up and didn't want to piss the day away with me anymore. Now I think it's me. Or, rather, all of us. I've been feeling very withdrawn.
I feel like my spark is gone. I have no interest in parties, mingling, or meeting new people. It's like, why bother? Is this what turning 30 does to people? Or am I experiencing something else?
New Roof - Summer 2019
3 years ago
6 comments:
The pre-midlife crisis. I thought it was just me.
hmmmm...
there are some moments in life that you suddenly feel all the people around you have gone, and some times it is true and some times it is your mind induced situation. I myself dont have that much friends but I do get in touch with those few ones. I just wanna say life's meaning is changin' in the new life style and new century and the way people get in touch, the way people like themselves, the all reasons behind these ... this is why we, as immortal souls livin' in mortal bodies long to gain and rely on somethin' immortal.
Best for you buddy,
majiD.
I don't know if it's a 30 thing, but I have felt this way increasingly this year. Like it wasn't really worth putting in the effort of meeting tons of people you may never see again and with whom you'll never be close.
My reconnects have been fine, but I do see that as people become more involved in their families, our priorities and common interests are shifting.
This is why we all have to go to China next year! Fun! Bonding! Keeping the dream alive!
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Is this thing on?
Time to get a dozen cats and move to a remote rural area.
Is this the beginning of a very slow dying process?
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